My first post on my birthday
Another year older. The big 31. It’s weird for me seeing that number because I really do feel like I’m in my 20s. As the saying goes, age is just a number. I have to tell myself that because if I focus on the number and the thought of “getting old” I’ll stop myself from really enjoying life and making bold, adventurous choices.
That’s why I decided to start this blog so I can constantly remind myself to really live and enjoy life. Whoever is reading this no matter how old you are do something new today, in honor of my birthday. You’ll make my day. Leave me a comment and tell me what you did! Even if it’s trying a new food, singing at the top of your lungs even when you can’t sing (*Cough, cough that’s me) or saying “hi” to a stranger and wishing them a great day. If you’re someone like me who’s an introvert, just try it, it will probably feel awkward but hey at least you did something new.
Life can feel so ordinary and bland sometimes but only you have the power to change that. Not always so easy to do, believe me I get it, so that’s why I’m starting now.
As I look back on this past year there were a lot of great memories and also some difficult ones. But that’s life. It’s not always going to be perfect.
PERFECT that word has always been a hard one for me because for most of my life I was always trying to be PERFECT. Be a perfect daughter, perfect student, perfect actor, perfect friend, perfect girlfriend, perfect teacher, perfect everything… but if you didn’t already know it is NOT POSSIBLE. Don’t freak out but it’s the truth. We all have our flaws, we all make mistakes but that’s what makes us unique and one-of-a-kind.
I still struggle with perfection now and then. I always thought being perfect meant someone would be proud of me or simply the acceptance of others. If I wasn’t perfect I thought I was a horrible human being. It’s true I really had those thoughts. When I finally accepted Jesus into my life and got baptized last year it really helped change my mind set and my heart. God loves me for me, my flaws and all. And I was tired of always trying to be perfect, I wasn’t even always doing it for myself, I was doing it for others, it’s exhausting. I wanted to be free to just be me.
If there was one thing I learned this past year it would be:
I AM NOT PERFECT AND I’M OKAY WITH THAT.
I’m actually doing what I want with my life. So for this coming year I want to keep going on that path, keep trusting God, and make sure I’m living everyday.
I write this not to lecture you, I write this in hopes to inspire you, so you can love the life you live. The past is the past. Let it go, learn from your mistakes, and make today one to remember.
You got this.
I believe in you.